Feeling lost, scared and wanting to fix this. Pt 2

[Turbine]

W is so in my head. I am trying to evict her but my heart isn't in it. D seems to be proceeding but I am not sure because nothing from her lawyer to requests from my lawyer.

I am still attending Church. What is different this time than before in the MR 1.0? Maybe this time I am ready. I know I am calmer overall. Maybe that and exercise. Not having to deal with my sister as much doesn't hurt either.

Planning on time with younger D and S. So this afternoon work on clearing more stuff at home. Overwhelming task. Has to be done though.

Heard W taking shower this morning... part of why hard to evict her... maybe never again... maybe will...

She is going to Church still. That's a positive that is nothing more than what it is. I did pray that W does that. How it goes from there is in God's hands.

I don't like the current sitch. I am not talking to her and am giving her as much room as I can considering still in the same house. Do I encourage her moving out? Neither of us can afford that. It would show something different... She did see me exercising. I had left the door open. Was it intentional... IDK.

Random thoughts. Feeling translucent. Probably... no, I am... overthinking this.