Wife is not who I married ... Pt6 pls help!

[LoneWlf]

toe-thanks for the support.

Just a bit of journaling. I met W today at the school for parent teacher interviews. I went dressed in new clothes - nice haircut -upbeat and positive. W came in dressed in her everyday frumpy clothes. Still no feelings either way. I showed up first but then W came and sat beside me asking questions about work and S. I stayed up beat keeping my answers brief and positive and throwing in a joke or 2 occasionally. The first classroom was on the main floor. S had an 83% avg so far- teacher said S is a good student. 2nd classroom was upstairs - so we get to the stairs and i jog up while I look back and see W labor up the stairs. Looks like she is not taking care of herself. Teacher said S is maintaining a 82% avg but has failed to hand in home work 3 out of 4 times. Last classroom is on the main floor so we head to the staircase. W says "are you gonna show off again by running down the stairs?". With a big grin I said jokingly ,"I can appreciate that you are getting old but it is too bad you can no longer keep up with this guy!" and off I went. The last teacher said S avg in his class was 97% said that S was a model student and encouraged S to join a after school club to utilize his skill and knowledge. One thing to note. While speaking with all Ss teachers W asks each teacher to keep an eye on S for any odd behavior because we are separated. She mentions it almost like she flaunting it as a badge of some accomplishment. It may be out of concern but somehow it did not sound like that to me. At the final exit I run into a kid I coached this year on my Ss baseball team and his single mom. Mom comes to give me a hug and thanks me for doing a great job coaching the boys to the semi finals.W is just behind me while this is happening. I left W feeling good that I portrayed a confident alpha male. I spoke to S about how proud I am of him and his marks and encourage him continue but focus on homework completion. Again I feel good and positive about my interaction with W. Still feelings of blah in terms of attraction to her. Anyways my journey to a better me continues. Stay positive- stay well!!