I have made so much progress in these last 81 days. So much accomplished. So much healing. So much addressing my root issues and attacking and resolving them.
But as numerous folks here have echoed repeatedly that what LBS have gone and are going through is very traumatic. GAL and Detaching help with the healing process, but it's not a magic pill that makes the hurt go away.
I keep thinking that I'm past the pain and trauma. Then something triggers it and spirals me back down.It does not take me back to square one. Far from it. It just brings back the sadness, depression, and hopelessness that resulted from it. This is day 5 of feeling this way and I keep hoping and praying that the pain ends soon and this story ends with a happy ending.
I am thankful for so many things that I have been able to accomplish and acquire in this process. I am becoming a better man. A man who is great, getting every more confident, getting more attractive, and getting to a happier place. But holy cow, I'd be lying if I said it was not without the worst emotional pain imaginable. And the crazy thing is, my sitch is not as bad as others (See ovrrnbw, Gordie, kech, and burned sitchs...that's worse!).
I am just experiencing things that I guess many folks go through in relationships...cheating, break-ups, neediness, all that jazz. I just hate that I'm experiencing all of that so late in my life.
