(This is something I feel strongly about. Mods, if I am crossing any lines in terms of what's allowed here, please let me know.)

If you are in the US and you feel the urge to harm yourself, call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255. You can also call 911 or go to a nearby ER.

In addition to finding a counselor or psychotherapist, please schedule an appointment with your primary care provider immediately and discuss these feelings with them. Ask for a referral to a psychiatric mental health nurse practitioner (PMHNP) or a psychiatrist for a medication consult. This is a serious matter that should be addressed by a specialist.

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4/10/18: I discovered A and confronted ("BD1")
6/23/18: I moved out
8/31/18: MC ends ("BD2")