Getting Back to my Old Self

[DonH]

Great comments Ginger. I much agree with most everything. Yes, I'm used to and expect nearly everything to go if not perfectly, perfect for me. The "everything" I talk about excludes Rs of any level, where I expect to be lied to, blown off, ghosted, left. Cheating is about the only thing that has not been common. Of course these things typically only happen with those I see as a match or potential match. I tend to forget or discount those who like or are interested in me but me not them at all or as much - like the gal from Thsnksgiving nearly two years ago trying to get me to Nashville.

So what am I going to do about the cruise Joseph? Well I actually watched more videos from that "coach" and his personality aside, his advice for what to do with someone like Wild Girl is totally on. So I have a huge resolve to not contact her again. Up to this point she's never ignored a text or phone call - or very rare. I figure I'll wait at least to the end of the month if I have to. In the meantime, I'll float a trial comment about making changes and start the search again. At least now we are at three months - where I'm much more comfortable being.

My resolve is/was very firm. And what happens not hours later last night.... "OMG I am so sorry! I thought I responded to your txtd message. I was helping out at the bar with bingo and raffles when I got it and then watched my nephews Sunday night amd Monday and must have totally forgot. How are you?" Ugh seriously? If nothing else, THAT didn't take long. We proceeded to talk all night while watching the Brewers game. She seemed the most "normal" in weeks. Interesting that if I'm correct PMS should have ended on Monday. She was honest about Saturday - though no details nor do I want them. So I have no clue. But I can just feel I'm sucked back in at least slightly so. Then got a text this AM too. WTF

Who knows? Did she feel bad? Did her friends at work knock some sense into her? Was her "date" Saturday not nearly as fun as me? Did she create enough distance to release the pressure and anxiety and feel attraction again? Is this just her and this level of casual is just all she is capable of? If it's the last one, I need to adjust my response.

So what will I do? Carry on. I will for sure go meet OLD girl next week. I thought about asking Wild Girl,out - which is what the "coach" suggests - I just don't feel like it. At least not right now. Just never easy is it. Clearly the fact that I asked, she accepted, and tickets were purchased for a 10 day "date" three months from now totally complicates it - at least for me. I don't want to turn into the bad guy here. Totally hitting it off with and continuing to date OLD girl coukd change that but one thing at a time.

Amd on it hues!