Still Lost pt3

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Update , Monday eve not sure what happened but finishing up NMMNG, and the section with the warning about a relationship moving forward or an epiphany about it ending? Keep thinking about Lucy and Charlie Brown and how he would never learn. I swear all those times she slept with me night after night then would disappear for weekends has pulled me further and further away. Last night I was able to walk away when she wanted to “hang out” and have drinks after work. I just wasn’t interested in the same routine....the same outcome. I used to think hey this will lead to something only to be let down the next day.

Was reading in basement and she said I have to come up to talk. She said was getting a job offer for less money to work from home or to move to CALIFORNIA. I said what does that mean she said I guess we will find out when I get the official offer. She said she waived benefits for more money....like I’m paying for those next year? It was like she was trying to see if I would be upset at the idea of her leaving. But honestly I said that’s great you need to do what makes you happy.

Was just odd statement, she was drinking though, but how can you expect to move to California, make less money, survive on less and have me pay benefits from East Coast? I really think she has lost her mind. Convo lasted a few minutes and back down I went.