Saw a comment from Steve in another thread about "logic and reason" and realized that's my biggest crutch. So starting today I'm jettisoning that and trying something "new," a.k.a. something people have been telling me to do for a while.

Problem is these changes never stick. Ask W! So I will have to hold myself accountable, and maybe my "men's group" here will hold me accountable, too.

It's amazing how far down to the basics I have to dig. Frustrating that I wasn't able to get to this point until I started detaching. Frustrating how long it took me to detach. Because there was denial, resistance, opposition.

She may never see the changes but that's her loss, I guess. I'm getting better at accepting that.

Onward.

H: 35 W: 33
M: 11 T: 13

4/10/18: I discovered A and confronted ("BD1")
6/23/18: I moved out
8/31/18: MC ends ("BD2")