Feeling lost, scared and wanting to fix this. Pt 2

[Turbine]

Today is definitely a low day on the roller coaster. Don't want to go home. Don't want a lot of things right now.

Tomorrows big activity.... dog pile my sister's dog. Full blood Chow, about 85 lbs,so he can get his shots. Muzzled and drugged. Last time it took 4 adults to hold him still enough for the shots and blood draw. Yipee kai yea (insert Bruce Willis quote). So yeah... not thrilled about that either.

Could I use some good news or a positive right now. Yes. Will I get it? God only knows. I hope so.