So I cancelled meet up with W...as my IC was correct, meeting up with her at this point won’t do anything but have her further entrenched in justifying her choices. Plus upon further reflection, I do believe I would be vulnerable.
I’m finding myself in a real funk today with reality of my marriage coming to an end. I had a doctors appointment this morning which happens to be at W place of employment. The staff doctor wanted to schedule another 6 month appt. where it dawned upon me that I won’t have privileges there anymore 6 months from now as I’m on w insurance. This is the first real incident where I’m faced with the fact that I will be divorced in all likelihood 6 months from now.
I know that people likely move between the stages of grief....today I feel as if I moved back 2 notches and pain and sadness ensued. Despite all the stuff W has done to me and S...I still see a glimmer of a future with w...growing old together...yada yada. I know the only way to get through this pain is straight through. Likely the doctor apt triggered these emotions.
Today I have feelings that are as fresh as when BD occurred.
Last edited by EZdozit; 10/15/1807:20 PM.
Me - 38 W-37 S6 M 10 years T 13yrs BD 3/18 W moves out 4/18 W files 7/18
