Yikes. Man... they sure know how to hurt you with the comments. Wow. Banjohe... I would not worry about the "sight of you makes me mad" comment. He's not wrong. The sight of you does make him mad... and sad... and guilty... and a whole host of other feelings he isn't going to tell you about. His anger has NOTHING to do with you so don't take that on. His anger is all about him. He knows what he is doing is not okay. He knows he hasn't really given it his all. He knows that he is taking the easy way out. So... yes... the sight of you makes him really, really uncomfortable. And...still...he wants to see you. I know this is hard. I know it is counterintuitive. I know you know that GAL is very, very necessary. As AS said... you have to make yourself do it. You can only benefit. And you are not alone... not even close. Sending you a long distance hug!!! (((Banjohe))) You can do this!!! One foot in front of the other...
