I'll just echo AS here. There will be some serious ups and downs in the process. I also fell into a serious depression about 4 months post BD - for me it was triggered by heading back home after months away and by realizing the hopelessness of the sitch. It was really rough. I had been feeling very good in the preceding week and hit me especially hard because I thought I had broken through. Those things happen, and probably will happen again in the future.
My hope is that the ups and downs, which still occur, are smoothed out and trending upwards. I still have negative thoughts or memories at times but am able to let them go.
Overconfidence and denial are always things to be on the lookout for, and I'm still a newbie in this process overall. AS is probably right that the process takes faaaaar longer than we think when we are in it. For me it is all about focusing on being present and living in the moment.
It sounds like you are in a good place thus far Ryan, keep working it.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019
