Thanks I really appreciate all the feedback I am getting. I am sure there probably will be lots of ups and downs and I don't doubt some anxiety/depression will eventually pop up and hopefully I am prepared to deal with that. I imagine that after a couple months and not really seeing any changes in my spouses reaction towards me (if that happens) that the sadness may try and return but I'm trying to best prepare myself for those kinds of situations. Best case WAW takes some notice and begins expressing interest in working on the marriage, worst case things continue as they are and we remain strangers in the same house. But at least I am working on myself and am thankful for my three amazing kids and all the fun we have together.
