MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART XII

[ItHurts]

Yeah I'll just send her a text of full plans...where we're going and at what times.

Yeah I just had enough of her crap. It was just stupid what was going on. Yesterday was the final straw with her! It's like, stop complaining to me how none of these stiffs she dates isn't this or that! I can really give two sh**s whom you date unless it's me. The crap needed to stop and the pow-wows needed to halt. I was bored. So I laid it out...gave her a chance to back out of the Halloween festivities with me, and she didn't. She definitely was in a different place somehow...like this movie coming out was her wake up call...that and this date must have in some way profoundly altered her perspective of me, somehow, I can't pinpoint it, since it was enough to make her cry. I can't imagine she'd be crying over some guy she met once...I think she was telling me some veiled message. Not that that mind reading crap matters anyway. I just know something triggered something within her because there was something about her yesterday that left me with a sense that she was now thinking if possible R. I wish I could explain it but it's just something knowing her...only way I could describe it was there was no opposition to anything I said which there was a bit of before.

So I guess you could say I reached my breaking point with her because yet AGAIN she intentionally seeks ME out and this time it's not to make pretty little fires and hug each other good night like good little pals do. Something I haven't quite put my finger on was noticeably different in her receptiveness to the blatant R talk. I can't describe it but it left me aith a sense that she is now seriously thinking about us getting back together.

But as always, I'm just going along for the ride to wherever my life road leads me. I just wanted to make DAMN sure she knows that ALL future meetings are now predicated on possible R in her head, not buddies. Screw that. To be honest I've always thought of her too on Halloween and how awesome it was when we were together. Of course I didn't tell her yhat but the last 3 Halloweens weren't too great for me because my life was so drastically different. So I can't understate how special Halloween was to us. So her coming and basically saying she wants to spend the season with me this year is pretty big...even moreso because I made it abundantly clear that ALL of this stuff is predicted on R...and she didn't back out.

So we'll see what happens. Another surprising entry here in my seemingly endless thread in the ongoing WAW sequel currently in production. I'm happy I laid it out with her...biw she knows if she's in my presence it's because I have designs for her. The pal stuff has come to a final screeching halt with me. Knowing she knows that now, it'll be interesting to see where things go. As always, I'm down with whatever...because I know she can't stay away and I suspect she never would be able to now. Overconfident? Perhaps a bit...but I don't have anything to lose this time because after all, I already technically lost her 4 1/2 years ago and I'm still here L-I-V-I-N'!
Que sera sera...that's right.