Gordie 22 eight months after she dropped the D

[Gordie]

Gerda thank you for your kind words

I would love to write a short story

I love to read so writing is a fantasy of mine

A fantasy I have never explored

A well written story is a work of art

A gift from the writer to the reader



Andrew thank you for checking in

I know I cannot control them which is why it is hard

I love them but they push all my buttons

They live far away but I still go see them regularly

I told them I do not wish to speak about w

And they honored my wishes until it was time for me to leave

They said they want me and the kids to spend the holidays with them

I told them I could not commit to that under the current circumstances

Then they pressed for more information

And they started with the guilt trips

I was brief and firm

They would not let it go

I felt my blood pressure rising

And then I left



Journaling

My good days now far outnumber my bad days

The truth is w is still baking

I am not at risk of divorce in the near term

But I am also not fully reconciled

W is still trying to figure out who she is and how to make herself happy

She has gone through a lot of changes in her thinking about

Diet and physical appearance

Religious beliefs and practices

Social beliefs and practices

The meaning and purpose of life

So for two years of this journey she was convinced she needed to be free if me to live life as a single woman

Which is what brought me here



It is as the Women in MLC book describes

It really is like a second adolescence

I am in year six of her MLC