Birthday party last night. I threw a cocktail masterclass party and invited 10 girlfriends round. It was such lovely night. Nothing major. We had a cocktail master and a chief come over. The cocktail master taught us 4 cocktails and in between each we were served canapes. the cocktail master class lasted about three hours and then are just sat in the living room and drank wine and talked.
I never would have been able to do it if my H hadnt left. i would have had to think about his roster, whether a cocktail class is something he'd be interested in doing, who would watch the kids etc etc. I mentioned this to him yesterday and he said "you could have organized something in the past". Maybe i could have (logistic would have been tougher) but I didnt want to. He and the family were enough and towards the end, I was too scared of displeasing him.
some random things ...
We had agreed he would bring D12 back from netball and then come back and pick up both kids at 5:00 so I could start getting ready for the party. When he brought D12 back i asked if he wanted a coffee before he left. He said yes and we sat in the kitchen, him reading the paper (he brought this in with him) and me reading a book. Every now and then he would comment on what he was reading and wed talk for a bit. this went on for a couple of hours and then he said there was no point in him going away and coming back and he might as well stay until 5. well, 5 came and i he was still there. after many hints, he eventually got the point and we walked to the front door. he started to walk out then decided he needed to clear the drive (there were leaves) so spent 20 mins doing that. Whilst I know mind reading is a big no ok these do not seem like the actions of a man who fast fully let go. He also picked me up this morning to take me kr watch D12s football game and invited me round ri his mums for dinner tonight.
