No worries on the style, I kinda like it because our thoughts aren't always organized or linear. So the love prospect fizzled a bit? Well, there will be more. And you being "clueless" about men is just a feeling of unease from everything going on IMO. You know plenty about men, you married one!!!! Like you said, when a man truly is interested, you won't have to question it and you will know.
I will commiserate with you on not having the special someone to spend time with. I like the group you're looking at joing too. You never know what good may come of that.
Why did your H leave you extra money? And yes, if it wasn't for mixed signals, we'd have no signals it seems.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.