Thanks so much Neffer, Ovvrnbw, Davide, Lonewlf, and Sia for taking the time to respond and for your encouragement.
I met the friend of the guy I like (his colleague) on Friday. It seems the guy I like is offended or bothered by what happened according to what his friend implied. We were talking about our relationships and his friend also said the guy I like has a casual on / off again relationship with a woman from his home country but he refers to her as 'just a friend.' So for sure he has his own issues and complicated love life just like we all do here.
It's hard not to think about what happened with this guy at work. I didn't hear from him for over a week before he came, then he seemed interested in person, then he arranged that we'd have our meeting alone on Friday, then my CEO canceled it, now we didn't see each other again and he left the city without a single word. I think I did my best to show him I was interested (asked to pick him up at the airport, invited him to a sports event, offered to meet him socially after our meeting was canceled, etc.. {and none of those things happened}). I'm not devastated or super sad because this is nothing compared to what I've been through with my husband, but I feel unlucky that my CEO blocked the meeting because I wanted to see him. I'm not planning to date or marry him - even if he liked me I wouldn't want things to progress because it's not practical. He's younger and has no kids and his life is totally different than mine. If I were to ever be in another relationship it'd have to be with someone more mature who can relate better. I just like him and wanted to enjoy our time together while he's here.
I feel so unprepared to be single and clueless about men. It's nice to hear that you all thought the guy from work sounded interested but I had one long-term relationship before my husband and then my husband and in both cases I never had to question for a second if either guy was interested. They made it really clear they were. So I don't think I'll give further consideration to a guy who sends such mixed signals because to me mixed signals means not interested.
My husband left again today after a short visit. There's nothing to report at all. We had minimal interaction. I get mad every time I see my husband glued to his phone when our daughter is trying to talk to him or spends time with him. He did send me extra money after he left today and he called me late the other night to ask a question that really wasn't time sensitive, so he's still better than before, but it's again frustrating with the mixed signals. He doesn't want to get divorced, doesn't want to reconcile..... Again I guess mixed signals mean not interested.
It's generally hard not having anyone special with whom to talk or spend time. I wish I could find such a person as some of you have done.
I'm planning to invest in a babysitter to attend the local divorce care group this coming week. I don't think I'll be able to go often but I wish to see what the group has to offer and see if I can meet anyone there in real life like those of you here in this forum.
