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The one thing I need to add as to why I’m going dark is that I have been the fixer in this relationship. There is one conversation on the phone after he announced that he wanted a divorce and went back out west that I didn’t engage or get into an R talk. That went well even though I was heart broken.

In the preliminaries of me receiving treatment I was literally using him as a sound board for how I’m feeling going through this health ordeal although he always waited until I contacted him, and never ever called me. He was always just messaging me asking how I was doing and only wanted me to reach out to him to tell him how’s I’m doing.

Now I’ve backed off completely and have not initiated any sort of contact.

GAL is tough because I feel like physical crap most of the time. Never mind emotionally.