Journaling... I saw my H today. He picks the kids up from school on Fridays and usually feeds them dinner. We had a brief talk. He has stopped going to his therapy group. I asked him “why” and he said the people there were just “too weird”. I don’t doubt that but still... disheartening because they are teaching skills there that he could use. But...he is still going to IC so at least that is something. We talked about some stuff at his work and just general newsy stuff. He caught be looking out the window at one point and asked me what I was thinking. Normally, I would have said “nothing’ but I answered honestly and said that I missed our friendship. He nodded and said the last few days of friendship have been nice. Of course, now I am thinking maybe I am being too friendly. Honestly it has not been hard as he has been very nice to me lately and when I have had to text him about the kids, he has responded right away which is very unlike him. Not reading anything into it though. Most of the time, I suspect it is just his guilt and that I don’t give him a whole lot to be mad at. Anyway... I am going to go as NC as possible the next little while... for my sake. I don’t really need him for a friend. I have lots of friends here. Next weekend is his birthday. He is going to have the kids that day. I am going out of town with my sister for a much-needed break.
