Dunno my statement was contradictory I guess. W instigates and many opinions were better me than OM. I get it prob not best idea but I have to be honest I am being pulled further and further away each time almost like it is taking my brain repetitive blows to get it that she is in the fog and it’s just physical. Unlike Charlie Brown and Lucy with the football I really feel like I am learning....what the outcome will be the next day, sober. When I get past this and I will I will be able to drop the rope.

H-50
W-48
T-19
M -18
S23, S14
BD - 5/9/2018
OM discovered 5/10/2018

In house sep - 8/18/2018
Rope drop 2/15/2019
R'ing since 3/15/2019