Unsure what's next, what to do.....

[marina7]

Wanted1,

Just wow, I was in tears for you.

I can see your trying so hard and I get it, you love your W.

But now I am more about kids, I am an advocate for kids.
Do you know your kids are hurting, and if you think they to young
to understand, they know more than you think.

I see someone ask you paternity test. I bet that a hard pill to swallow but
you can't believe 50% what they say or do. I am sorry you can't

I get it your mind is everywhere your in survivor mode trying to save your M
I am here to be blunt. Your W is gone you must now worry about kids and you.

I said the same thing if W loses kids she would maybe take her life
I started seeing my kids draining, Tired, and hungry coming back
From W being sick. I needed to put my super hero cape on and stop
Protecting W. I realized I am responsible for 3 little people I got my head
out my a** and focus on my kids.

I basically began GAL with kids, W would yell I need them I would just walk away
I realized my kids could not be her crutch.

You must let go. Let your W go that doesn't mean you stop loving her.

Is hard trust me I would have never thought I would be here writing giving advice
I was once Broken, lost, a broken heart a broken soul. But I am still healing
But is not what I was 1yr ago. I still have my days but one day at a time.

Wanted1- 1st paternity test , but if you know you don't need it because
you love them regardless then don't because you might not like the results.
As a mom of 3 adopted to me that means nothing I love then as mine

Get custody of kids, get them in kids therapy
Financial protect yourself. Be fair to W 50 and 50

Gal and kids. Start living life become there superdad don't
Take that cape off not even when W is around.

Get lots of rest eat well laugh more take care of you because
your babies need you more then ever.

I am going give you advice someone once gave to me.

Why would you want to be with someone who broke you once
and have them put you back together and rebrake you.

Also I was told by my kids therapist,

Therapist you love your kids
M of course
Therapist then why you letting them be abused
M wtf, nobody abuse my kids I protect them. How dare you
Therapist you say you do but you let your W mentally abuse them
M crying how dare you say this to me
Therapist Then protect them your there voices stop
making excuses for W. Stop worrying how she will feel
M it hit me like a truck I needed to hear that, my mind shifted
I realized that day my super hero cape never came off even with
there own mom. I treated W like a stranger because she is a stranger
My own kids don't recognize W behavior.

So please let W go, and remember God has something else plan for you
And your family. And if W is part of God plan then he will make it work
on his time. Let God guide you. Let go and give him all your trouble and pain.

Best wishes and will be following. Stay strong and remember

Is ok to be sad
Is ok to be mad
Is ok to cry
Is ok to be confused
Is ok to be angry
Is ok to not be ok
Remember is ok we are humans we all done mistakes