When you put it that way, no, there is nothing I could say that would stop the divorce.
Honestly, I do not know how to read her anymore. I sometimes wonder if she wants to me "chase" her. Is the test to see how bad do I want to be with her?
It is just that when she moved out and announced the D, I did a 180 by not putting up a fight. I did not beg, plead or cry. I never asked her to perhaps just take some time to think and talk about it again before pulling the trigger. I did not tell her that this is not what I want and that I want to work on the R / M nor did I ask for another chance for us to work on things.
The only thing I did mention at the time was that it was unfortunate because I had been doing a lot of learning about myself and at the point in time I was in a relatively good place and told her that I had put undue pressure on her for the past few months and that I had finally figured out why and was correcting it. She even admitted that she noticed it in the days prior to her leaving.
She had just done an all day work related charity event a few weeks prior to moving out and she asked that day why I did not ask her about it when she got back. I responded with "why did you not invite me or include me in the donation process?" as other spouses or family members went/donated. I reminded her that I was envious of the event and told her previously that I wish I would also participate and even in the days leading up to it showed tons of interest is what she was doing by asking questions about it and showing her the website with photos from previous years. I told her that I was just waiting for her to bring it up and show the me photos. She had no answer... I think I mentioned this earlier in the thread, but she left that day telling me that she was going to think about what I said and I could see her questioning her self whether she was doing the "right" thing.
There was never a follow up discussion...obviously she thought about it and is moving forward with the D.
I have only had one other face to face interaction with her and between the last thing she said to me the day she moved out and the way she acted the last time we met, I would swear that we still have a chance because I could see she loves me the way she looked at me and the way we held each other.
I have been doing the LRT for almost 2 months now and it has been at least 4 weeks since a "temp. check". The only texts I receive are about the dog and when would I like dog to come over. Does this mean it is not working? Obviously, if there is an OM that could be a reason, but I have no evidence there is one. Since our contact is so limited, how do I know when things are working or not? I do not wish to prematurely stop LRT as it has only been 2 months, but how long after should I start to notice if it is working?
