The bomb woke me up, but she won't talk

[lusa]

It's been a while - so I thought I should update my thread.

I've been back home 9 weeks now:
I'm still sleeping on the couch
I'm still DBing to the best of my ability
I haven't backslid on my 180's, mainly involving getting angry with her or the kids.
There has been no R talk, pursuit or pressure
There have been no arguments, good interactions with humour and lots of validating from me.

I have noticed what I think are movements towards R

W has asked to help with my budgeting, stating we will be debt free in 12 months.

W has been showing me new family houses she has been looking at that we could potentially move to, I don't get excited about this anymore - it's funny because I'd have given anything for her to bring something like this up 6 months ago.

W has been making me packed lunches to take to work every day.

I am definitely becoming more detached and having hardly any expectations has resulted in me rarely being disappointed or frustrated. I don't know what the future holds or what I want anymore. I've learnt I would be able to forgive her properly, but don't know if it's possible to rebuild my trust in her to the extent I'd need to. I have been reading Sandi's WW threads a lot as I want to ensure I don't make any of the classic mistakes of taking her back too easily if the situation arises.