Yeah wouldn't that be awesome if we got the manual before we bought the car. I feel your pain, I have developed that codependency as well and always felt it was the right hing to do for 18 years....boy was I wrong. However we are not dead and I can only hope we can both move forward and eventually get the peace and love that we deserve in life to come.
On the following around and berating part, at certain points in the last 5 months my WW has flipped out for periods and has even gone to extents to tell people I am beating her even though I have never and will never lay a hand on her to justify what she is doing. That being said my attorney said feel free to break out the phone and record and let her know if you are in an uncomfortable situation.
H-50 W-48 T-19 M -18 S23, S14 BD - 5/9/2018 OM discovered 5/10/2018
In house sep - 8/18/2018 Rope drop 2/15/2019 R'ing since 3/15/2019