He most definitely is not who I married, so you are right. I dont miss the him he is now, I miss the him I married. The him who loved me more than anything in the world and wanted nothing more than to spend his life with me. Crazy how much things can change. I would NEVER think I could be in this position. Ever.
Blu,
Thank you so much. And you are also right, he is an immature, selfish jerk. And he has failed. I dont quite understand how he doesnt see it that way, but thats his own journey to figure out I guess. He is CHOOSING to blame me, its crazy.
Less is definitely more. I really wish I could see him less, not that we see eachother much, but he comes to see D 4 nights a week, and im finding I enjoy the nights where I wont see him much more than the nights I know I will. But I try to fill my time out of the house by doing things for me. Tonight I will leave when he arrives and go get my nails done I think and go search for a pair of shoes for the dress im wearing to the wedding. Id much rather be home with my beautiful D, but it is what it is.
