Everything comes in waves. I do NOT want to go down the rabbit hole to where I was just 1 week ago. I have been feeling so much better about myself, he cant have me. Thats MY CHOICE. So whether he wanted it or not, Im making the decision that im not an option for him right now. He would have SO much work to do and he has made no moves to do any of that work. So why pine for someone who wouldnt even make me happy right now?
I secretly hope hes struggling in his new relationship. I hope it crumbles, as horrible as that sounds. But I am above it. I have a bridal shower this weekend that I am a part of planning because I am a bridesmaid, and I also have a wedding to go to. So it will be a busy couple of days for me getting ready for all that. Hopefully my mind stays occupied.
