Really feel like I need to get on here and brag a little because I am damn proud of myself tonight. Wednesday night WAW gets off work at 5:30 so I always take S7 to piano. I’m leaving the house and WAW calls, I don’t answer and proceed to get the kids loaded up in the car and head off to piano. Accomplishment #1 I didn’t answer my phone (giving myself a pat on the back). About 20 minutes later WAW calls again as I am sitting in the parking lot of piano. I let it ring several times but eventually answered. She was touching base regarding schedule for the night and asked if she could go to the gym. I advised her that I planned on going to the gym after the kids were in bed but I would be happy to get my son from piano, get the kids fed and would see her at their bedtime to put the kids to bed together then I would head to the gym. Needless to say the whole thing was trap but I didn’t fall for it, accomplishment #2. 8:45 rolls around, I have now done everything by myself to get the kids to their activities, get them dinner and get them to bed. Plus I now don’t have time to get the gym and get in a proper workout since hey close at 10. WAW comes home and asks me if I am going to the gym and I confidently, without any yelling or any of my typical angry miserable previous reactions calmly stated “ I’m looking at the clock and it is now 8:50. At 5:40 you called me and we discussed the schedule for the evening and the plan was you were going to the gym, we would both put he kids to bed at 8:00 and then I could go to the gym. It is now three hours later and I don’t have time because they are closed soon. I feel angry, disrespected, undervalued and above all genuinely disappointed. I need you to understand that my time is valuable and I deserve basic courtesy from you regardless of being separated”. Then I turned around, put on my runners and went for a hour long jog.
Boy does it feel good to do a 180 and remain calm all while confidently stating what I want and deserve.On another note I began reading No More Mr. Nice Guy by Robert Glover. While extremely depressing at first because it explains a lot about me and why WAW feels the way she does I feel good about finally working on myself and becoming a better person that I can love.
