Sorry this is going to be quick...I used up all my energy on a post to Karen... a large 2x4 that I don't think she's going to understand. but I want you to know I'm thinking about you and hope you are in a better place at this moment.....just this moment..
because that is all we have just to focus on..... this moment and try not to take on anything more than that... where you are and what you are doing in this moment......and know that we all love you.
we have to rise above our problems and realize there is so much worse suffering in the world than the silly problems we bother ourselves with.
How dare we be so self centered to think that our problems are so severe.
Until you have held a dying child in your arms.....
or a poor soul who has not had water in five days and has lost his legs...who drags himself through the desert only to find no place to lay his nead at night..........are we really suffering???
Are our problems so insurmountable?
We have friends and loved ones. We have no bombs landing on our families. We have a warm safe bed at night. We have food that will keep us one more day. We have another day to see the sun come up.
When there are others on this planet who have nothing...how can we say our problems overwhelm us.
We have ourselves and our souls. Our freedom and our libertys. We have hope and possibility.
What more could we ask.
Gigantic hug , I KNOW will understand...... and as much as we hurt....we have hope......
It is when hope is gone...that we have nothing. Much love,
It is good to hear from you again. I read your post and was thinking about the sort of fun we used to have, the time Betsey and I were chasing you in your straight jacket.
Shiny and I used to have fun also, on Friday evenings while she was waiting on CJ to bring dinner home.
I know this is all very serious, but the light hearted banter always sort of helped my mood I think.
The bb seems very heavy and deep any more. Possibly that is just my perception, but even Betsey's thread doesn't seem to have the humor it used to on it.
Thank you for the thoughts. I am in a bit better place than I was earlier. I still feel very stressed. Sort of frantic is the word like I NEED to be doing something, but there is nothing left to do, it is all over.
I absolutely agree with your post. Knowing that and feeling the way I do at times, tends to make me more down on myself, as I point out how self centered that is and then that makes me less worth living. I don't suppose that makes any sense. That is probably because it is all black/white thinking and negative self talk.
You see that is my problem right now. I see no hope for my future. I realize I am probably only looking at it in black and white and that I need to get over that and I hope to process on through this stage.
Thank you Trish, love and miss you.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I want to thank you for all the posts today. The distraction of reading and thinking about what you were saying was very good for me, to help me get myself picked back up out of the basement a bit.
I hope J tires of D quickly.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I did understand why you weren't here and I appreciate you in paticular because I know what it costs to go somewhere you are possibly headed and read.
{{{Deb}}}
We didn't settle an amount of the house payment I would have to pay. I probably can't pay half of it and he would just have to take a bigger percentage of the equity that builds between now and when it sells.
We did not discuss repairs and I am hoping to do that with him before long. To see what his thoughts are on it.
You know your H might surprise you if it comes to that.
D was much more generous than I expected and much better than the deal his A was offering.
Might be worth asking him about discussing settlement.
I am not sure how that works on retirement, if you don't get it till he retires or it has to be pulled out when the d is final.
But he really should be able to see that you are owed that after the length of time you have been married.
He also appears to still care, because of all the stuff he has done and the actions you have seen out of him. He won't want to leave you in bad shape.
I really don't think D will be happy with J, but he has known her for a long time and he should have a good idea of what he is getting into. So maybe I am wrong and he can live that way.
I guess he is planning to find out. At least Frostbyte doesn't have to live with the screaming witch!!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
