It is good to hear from you again. I read your post and was thinking about the sort of fun we used to have, the time Betsey and I were chasing you in your straight jacket.
Shiny and I used to have fun also, on Friday evenings while she was waiting on CJ to bring dinner home.
I know this is all very serious, but the light hearted banter always sort of helped my mood I think.
The bb seems very heavy and deep any more. Possibly that is just my perception, but even Betsey's thread doesn't seem to have the humor it used to on it.
Thank you for the thoughts. I am in a bit better place than I was earlier. I still feel very stressed. Sort of frantic is the word like I NEED to be doing something, but there is nothing left to do, it is all over.
I absolutely agree with your post. Knowing that and feeling the way I do at times, tends to make me more down on myself, as I point out how self centered that is and then that makes me less worth living. I don't suppose that makes any sense. That is probably because it is all black/white thinking and negative self talk.
You see that is my problem right now. I see no hope for my future. I realize I am probably only looking at it in black and white and that I need to get over that and I hope to process on through this stage.
Thank you Trish, love and miss you.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
