Thanks Ginger, you are right about that. I cant really understand how he views all of this to be honest. Im so conflicted, but I was feeling SO low, I just do not want to feel like that anymore. I feel like I may have my own power back a little bit in a way. Of course I would love to shake him and tell him I love him and lets fix this, but he doesnt even deserve that. He doesnt deserve to feel like I want him. He has hurt me SO bad. SO bad. I wish I had started DBing a year ago, it probably would have made a world of difference.
