Focusing on work and my neck issues which I’m hoping to have surgery for by the end of the year.
On the marriage front, I’m surprisingly doing well. I think I’m to the point of realizing I got dealt a crappy hand in life. My marriage counselor told me last week I’m the ideal son in law and he would approve of me in a heartbeat as a father to his daughter (hypothetical). Also had been biting his tongue the last 8 months as he has someone in mind for me. Extremely validating. I’ve owned and addressed what I contributed to our marriage, but most of it is out of my control unless I could have been stronger after dealing with 10+ years of neck issues that should be addressed shortly.
Still want my wife back to an extent, but at this point, there isn’t even any form of temp checking by her. Literally no contact, which probably makes it easier. I’ve had a number of people reach out to me wanting to introduce me to “a great match”, but the last thing I want to do is stop my self reflection and healing and hurt a woman before I’m ready to date. Also believe I shouldn’t do that until things are finalized as I’m still married and bonded by our marriage covenant.
Any suggestions or advice given there is no contact by my W? I know the drill, GAL and focus on myself, but at this point I’m not sure why I keep fighting the inevitable.
