Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can

[marina7]

Thank you everyone,

I prayed to my aunt and uncle said lead me please

So I went in there being me and honest.

How W was amazing and we loved her,
How W bake because she loved to bake
I loved to cook
I hate shopping W shop for us
I managed our bill and finances
W always help me.

How I in 2014 had an emotional affair and didn't realize
an affair is an affair
I now take accountability for my actions
2015, I realized life is precious after almost
Losing my life. I literally had a spiritual awakening.

How W started pushing us away,
Once W beautiful light hazel eyes
Went dark, W was not herself
W started being less home, forgetting about us.
Our kids started annoying W, W became frustrated
But I still held us. With always making sure W smiled.
Those smile W would come and go.

I held us together and reminded W how we loved her.
Until 2017 W bd ILYBNILWY, I lost myself, I need to
Find myself, I lost myself being a mom,wife. But we
Can still be best friend.

I won't lie many memories came up. W was once an
Amazing Women I would not lie about that.
She could take me out my shell W was more social
W always been outgoing. And kept me on my toe.

I made sure therapist knew the old W and the now W
But interesting Therapist said something that I paused.

Therapist, Is funny how our exes could
Rewrite history and we can also tell who telling the truth.
M. I wipe tears and it hurts.
Therapist yes you and kids are going to hurt for a
While but remember there is nothing you could
Have done or kids, this would have happened with
You or without you. Keep being there for your kids and
Being there lighthouse.
M I cried yes is hard but I am doing it with many groups and
Church and divorce group and my online support.
Therapist. Trust me it will get better. And your W loves
You in her own way I know.

So the therapist didn't give me info about W but listen
To me and my goal for the Trios. Therapist is so proud
Of where I been and the help I gotten us.

Remember W went last week I went this week and next week
We go together. As I stated before court. Is about the trio's being
Together and staying together and hoping we can put this pass us.

Therapist ask was I dating or someone in my life. Hmmmm that's where
I was shock. She then proceeded to say W brought it up.
I said well if I am W needs to focus on kids not me. Therapist yes
W stated she wants me to be marry and happy. And therapist found it
Strange why W said that to her. Now I get the question.

Well I made my point across I just want trio's together and focus on
Them three.

Well yesterday W wanted to talk, I ask is about kids W no
I replied there is nothing for us to talk about then. W wow like that.
I just got in car and drove off with our kids.

I need to realize W always temperature checking, and I usually fall
For it. I am done. Like I said I will forever love W. We had something amazing
But I must focus on me and my kids as I always have.