ah, the sounds of experience. i have to back up both betsey and t2 on this one. and quite frankly anything i say will not compare to the two of them because i have not had the awful 'death' experiences each one of them have had to deal with
but i had to add my 2 cents here pam. i have told you time and time again that you get the most attention that i have ever seen on this board ever since i first came here. you have gotten the best advice from some of the best advisors that would have costed you tens of thousands of dollars to get, yet you still CHOOSE this route of self-deprication - and quite honestly, i for one am at a loss as to how to help you anymore
it's all up to you now pam. it has been for quite a while - but really - from now on your are on your own. if it had not been for betsey and t2 posting, i would not have posted because i was just dumbfounded. and my first thought was, she is doing this again. AGAIN pam - this is not the first, and probably will not be the last.
you have to get some help. help that we here are all not qualified to deal with. we all love you pam and have put in countless hours to try to help ease your pain
