I did not know that Betsey.

I am sorry for you to have something like that happen.

I agree it is not fair to have the bb talk me out of anything and I wasn't asking them too. I actually swore I would never do that to my bb friends again. I just was so swamped this morning that I didn't know where to turn and should have just asked for some support this morning instead of dwelling on trying to figure out a way to end it all.

This was more a how in the world do you accomplish something like that. Which is not really a question you can ask someone.

I actually believe that deep down I don't want to do it or I would have found a way by now.

This past week I worked through a lot of emotions and thought I was past this ultimate in my black/white thinking.

This morning I was doing pretty well.

It all came crashing down right before I got your e-mail this morning.

Bottom line is I have no direction, I still don't know what I can do. I don't know how I am supposed to interact with David. He acts the same as before. But I'm not sure I can do that either.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"