I guess this is piecing

[Did]

She wants to put the work in on herself because she knows shes not in a place to be consistent. She said she has admitted her toxic issues (why admit them instead of say Im working on them and not just say I have these issues,..)

Already a set back as I was weak and called W tonight. When she had asked not to talk about us or sex until after therapy. I was trying to get her to understand my perspective and also tell her how unhealthy I thought her relationship with OM2 was- hope she was going to talk about that in therapy. It cant just be whataver she wants all the time. Im a human too and we need to be equal. Its really on me for just being there for her unconditionally and accepting random sex. We're together for two days she says how great it is. Then Sat I go to gym, come back and somehow she's changed and in a bad place when she was telling me how great of a day she was having and she was horny throughout the day. Then she needs to be alone for a day or two. She is definitely an introvert so I know alone time is important for her at this point (even though she never once asked for it during our 7 years together).

I can't just let her invite me over to have sex or come over when she needs me. She broke down, crying etc on the phone. I need to set boundaries. And focus on her less. Honestly shes not that freaking great Im just still attached.

Boundaries... We have already agreed on this sh*t but her word is meaningless in regard to plans. She says the future is anxiety... kind of crazy. I schedule appointments and work / travel all the time. Shes in this loopy bubble of nothingness except parenting and a random dinner / lunch date with a friend.

Boundaries - If we are doing family stuff / sleeping together we're doing date night every week or two. I am going to meet with the babysitter Saturday whether W wants it or not this will give me flexibility with D4 schedule and GAL.

We do therapy individually and together if we are seeing each other. She said therapy was for her when we discussed doing therapy together we both said we need to... again WTF is your word with a WAW.

We do not text about anything important.

Thoughts on boundaries?

She is trying in her own weird as* way. She kept texting me little things all day on what she was doing. I dont really care at all about that BS. She says I had such a productive day... Im like yea like a work day... (in my head- I have those every dam* day as do most people in the world).

After she breaks down like this usually she distances herself. I texted too much. Need to follow my own boundaries. Im just going to try to not care / act like I dont care... until I actually care less - detach. After 30 min she said she meditated and felt at peace. Said she didnt want my world to revolve around her. Show me that man that made so much growth and is patient etc. (patient- she just wants the money ehh steve?). Asked me to chill. Loves is right that who the F wants to talk about this stuff all the time.

In a negative mood. Its late here... early morning with D4. Goodnight all.