Reaching for Trust

[psluke]

Wrote this e-mail to David but at least have the sense not to send it. Which is better than I used to do. Although I have sent several e-mails this weekend. But try to sit on them for several hours or overnight before sending them.

He had said he would come back over and we would talk some more. Guess I should have known better than to expect he would do what he said he would do. He sucks at that, just gives someone an answer he thinks they want to hear and has no intentions of actually doing it.

I can't tell you the number of times I have seen him do the very same thing to his mother. As a matter of fact I think that is where he learned to do that type of avoidance. Because she is very controlling and always wanting him to do something, and he says maybe, or we'll see, just to get her off of his back.

Hi,

Hope your weekend went well, wasn't sure if you had to work or went to the dog shows.

Mine is still up and down. I would go along pretty well and then this feeling of absolute horror would sweep over me that my life is in ruins and that I'm really going through this horror of a divorce all over again.

I guess in a way I am disappointed in you.

Not that you are divorcing me, although that as well, but that you are doing it for another woman. Especially one that has had numerous affairs and it is public knowledge. I always thought you were a very private person, but I had forgotten that you and her carried your affair on in public the first time as well.

I honestly would have thought you would have picked up more from the bb than to run to another woman while trying to sort your marriage out. That you would have seen how easy it was to get infatuatiad, especially if you were going through a rough patch in your life and your marriage. Then your life situation changed and it made the ow even more applealing. Because suddenly you were like young and single with no responsibilities again.

You ditched the house, the kids and the wife. Can we say mid life crisis?

I really, really gave you more credit for intelligence than to take that route, especially after the books you read and all the reading and posting you did on the bb.