Hi Pam - I'm just a newbie, but have read your threads & those w/ CHL. First i have to say that you've come so far, and I admire your honesty and especially your caring for so many people.
I agree that getting out and doing something is REALLY hard - I spent countless weekends & weeknights paralyzed on my sofa. So, I have a suggestion for you - since you seem to like helping & giving to others so much, how about you go to a bookstore today, and pick out a book that you think we all should read that will help us on our journey. You can then come back here and tell us what you picked & why you picked it.
It's just a suggestion. I found it much easier to get out if I had a "mission" or something to do to help someone else.
Take care of yourself! You have many friends & admirers here on the BB. -H2H
