I'm not anywhere close to where you are(R). I know you have been in limbo for awhile my suggestion would be to really let it sit and pray about it. Also know that I am with you brother! Blessings!
M51 w50 T-20Yrs M-16Yrs S15- mad at W for not trying and giving up 1 Awesum dog BD 10/31/17 separate rooms 02/08/18 wife moved out 05/17/18