What I meant by deserving better is that I deserve better than trying to convince her to love me. I won't beg her, or any other woman to love me. The work I've done has never been for her. I'm not interested in talking her in to coming back and I'm not interested in returning to the relationship we had before BD. If she does reach out to me some day, I will have a difficult choice to make, but at this point I have nothing to hold on to but my love for her. I haven't, and won't pursue her. My focus is on healing and continuing to rebuild a great life for my son and myself.
This is perfect. As much as what you are going through right now $ucks, you are in a really good place. Right where you need to be. You may not see it right now, but in the future you will look back and know what I mean. Keep your head up, brother. You got this...
Me: 38 W:31 Kids: S16(mine from previous R), D10, S9, S4 M: 10 years T:12 years BD:Jan 3, 2018 W moved out: Apr 13,2018 Filed for D: Jun 2018 D final: Sep 2019
