That story about the father and son -- WOW. Also the way you write it. You pull exactly the most important details and say everything in so few words. It's a real gift. I want you to write a short story.

Meanwhile -- about your parents -- what is it they want to say or talk about? Your response of wanting to run seems very normal. You have taken on a very difficult task and walked it alone with only God. It's too hard to explain it to anyone with God. I don't think you have to tell them anything. Can't you just say,

"It's better if you share your worries with God and let me walk my path on my own. I trust God with my family and I am okay with all the mystery and uncertainty because of that." If they press you, just say, "Since I really just want to lean on God, it will only cause tension if you keep asking me about this. I know you love me and I love you. Let's just leave this at the altar."

If they are not believers, you could find the secular version of that?


I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord with courage.
Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.