WW having affair and pushing for divorce 2

[DB346]

I've had a few days now to process what happened at the hearing. What I realized is that she spent our entire marriage keeping score. We have been apart for over 5 months. We don't see each other at all and only communicate by text about our son. She is very resolute in her desire for this D. It feels like the only thing I can do is go through with the divorce and continue to live my life for God, my son and myself. There is no chance of R unless she comes to me and is truly willing to do the work. I love her enough to let her go live her life without me.

I know we shouldn't believe anything they say, and only half of what they do, but I do believe that she doesn't love me. I have worked hard to better myself and I deserve better.