I am so sorry for DejaVu. You are in a trough right now, but things don't stay there. They do get better.
Keep reading the other situations, it may help. You are older and wiser than me, so it seems like you know this life event is going to change you. Do everything to make it a positive change.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.