I'm just gonna be blunt here. She had sex with you because she wants you to keep paying her bills. You need to move forward and focus on you. Drop the rope. If she comes back, she comes back. If she doesn't she doesn't. I think it would be best for you to stop the cycle you're in and live you life for you. Either she'll noticed and be attracted back to you or she won't. Bu t at this point, you're just torturing yourself...
Me: 38 W:31 Kids: S16(mine from previous R), D10, S9, S4 M: 10 years T:12 years BD:Jan 3, 2018 W moved out: Apr 13,2018 Filed for D: Jun 2018 D final: Sep 2019