Thank you! Im at the brink of just taking the easy way out bc the pain is so horrific. The easy way out would be to tell my H just come home. Whether he would or not, it would open the door to it and we would start communicating more, etc. But I know that would do nothing for me but prolong this because then he would REALLY never have to take responsibility. I just am having such a hard time with this pain, It seems to be getting worse and worse as time goes on, and I am sure thats bc with everyday that passes I feel like he is building something stronger with OW. Its like were settling into roles as separated parents and I cant even believe it. The things we discuss now just blow my mind. I just want to say to him WHAT ARE WE DOING HERE?! ITS US!
Sometimes I think he just wants me to tell him to come home. Sometimes I am convinced he is just fine without me. Either way, im drowning.
Pressure. Pursuit. It never works.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
