So even though I leave when he comes, hes still getting that glimpse into our world, he isnt fully losing anything yet.And I dont really know how to change that in our sitch.
This is part of the problem. You are trying to manipulate a change and it isn't genuine. The cycle will continue.
Your H has given you a gift. The gift of opportunity to grow and become the best Kech possible. Quit staring into the sun knowing that it hurts. You will have more influence on the outcome of your sitch than you realize.
You just posted that you don't know how to change that in your sitch. GAL, Detachment, Boundaries, Self-Improvement.
It is easy to see from the outside looking in, because emotions cause us fear. Trust the process.
Thanks LITB. I dont think people realize how much strength I get from just you guys saying I do have power in this, and there is a bit of hope in my sitch. I feel so powerless day in and day out for some reason. I need to KNOW I do have power in this. He is giving me the gift of time, but in that time, im consumed by him and OW and what the time is giving them.
I know my H so well. I know he can get into a routine with someone and just feel very comfortable and content and be good with it, and im so afraid thats what he is doing with her. I cant even believe my mind is telling me to ask him to move home. How in the WORLD do I go from Tuesday telling him im disgusted by him as hes trying to discuss us, to Friday where im thinking should I just tell him to come stay the night. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. Goodness
