And we all have a right to be angry. But holding on to anger is like swallowing poison and expecting the other person to suffer. Are you still angry?
It wouldn't be healthy to feel as you said "flutters" at this time. Feelings change.
Besides if you attract her back you. Notice I said to attract and not to pressure her back, you can at the time decide what you want. Kick her to the crup if you want. But unless you attract her back, you have no chance of any healthy reconciliation. None
Up until this point, as is said in these pages, "W has given you the gift of time". This opportunity won't last forever.
Why not give yourself the opportunity? Not for your son exclusively. A crappy marriage is not what your S needs anyway. Remember S is watching whatever you do. In all my hours of reading about this stuff, I once read "find any reason to stay". Well, I will add "find any reason to DB." It's not your final decision.
Sia, thank you very much. I appreciated your post and one never know who else is reading.
M 53 W 54, M since 98 D15, D19 8/2013 discovered EA, W maintained contact with OM until 10/14 7/2/17 W said she wanted S, 7/25/17 moved out of MBR 12/17 W says moving out 5/18, W still in home.
