I asked you the questions I did, because sometimes I struggle with beating myself up with work(and my sitch shortly after BD). It is/was to my detriment. I see the same thing in you with your sitch. Thing is, we cannot change what has already been done. We can learn from mistakes and do better the next time.
I have the serenity prayer sitting on my desk. It is something my sister gave me early on in my sitch. It has been very helpful to me.
Kech, this is a journey. Life is filled with storms and they do not discriminate. Many times we just have to let go, and let God. Embrace the storm. I know it is difficult to see now, but you will be thankful for the transformation when it is said and done.
Right now, right here, it is about you and your lovely daughter. His cross is not yours to bear. You identify the areas that need improvement, and then make it happen. When you put in the hard work and the commitment you have demonstrated, you will not have any regrets.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa