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[stacey9]

Thank you so much for taking the time to reply. It means a lot.

Pain18 thank you, you have made me feel better already.

kml, I have tried dating, very briefly. I met a guy at a wedding, we swapped numbers and he asked me for lunch. He seemed really nice, but I just couldn't relax. It was the whole checking each other out thing that got to me. I couldn't stop thinking that he didn't like me, I couldn't relax, couldn't even eat a thing, it was terrible. Needless to say there was no 2nd date. The next guy who asked me out also seem nice but the same thing happened, I think I am just too shy and introverted for dating strangers. It would be much better if I got to know someone first, before the idea of dating even came up.

Juju, you are right I think my life is missing something and it seems exH is the only one who makes it feel right. I need to change that.

Thank you Focus22 for your vote of confidence! It's true, I won't go to pieces in the same way as 5 years ago, but it still feels hard all the same. I always thought if OW was out of the picture I would be able to accept another OW. Wrong. It still hurts.

As I thought he would, he is completely playing it down. He is just friends with her, they get on well, there is no big romance etc etc. That's what he's told everyone.

When he first started acting distant, I asked if there was someone else. He said no.

So where do I go from here? I already had a nice life before he came back into it. The kids have got used to him stopping by and hanging out and I don't want to stop that for the family's sake. But am I strong enough to have him in my life as a friend? Should I make myself be out when he stops by? I have no idea what to do.

Thank you all so much for your kind words, it was just what I needed. xx