i have already said my piece with WW. i have tiold her that if D or S i’d what she wants, i will not stop her.consulted with lawyers, about me and D14’s future. I have accepted the fact that M is already gone. i have already admitted to myself that i contributed 50% of the problems to MR, but in the end i did not run, i stayed, i asked if we can work it out. but thinking about those actions the pleading, begging, groveling, just makes me think, after being in this site, of how little of a man i was. been seeing IC, discussing my life moving forward, with or without WW. strengthening my bond with D14. and seeing all the faults that led me into this situation and trying to change them. everyday just becoming and trying to be a better person. right now, the main concern is D14.
as i’ve said, i’m a very patient man. we were apart for 6 years. i can do this. i guess, the reason i asked is because i feel like D14 is following my lead, in also going dark/NC with WW, without me telling her. Monkey see, monkey do. i want to know if i’m hurting D14 emotionally. i hardly think about WW, what she does or what she’s doing to me. but when i see D14 or she relays her feeling towards WW, that’s when it hits me again.
D14 has her own IC, and i always tell her that whatever bothers her about WW’s actions, she can talk to IC about it. i hope she doesn’t find me dismissive.
