It’s the morning of Day 5 and I’m starting to wonder if I made a mistake in asking him to leave. I am fully onboard with GAL and acting “as if” but there is a part of me that is angry at myself for making the decision for him. I mean, I am pretty sure it was what he was humming and hawing about anyway and would have done it on his own but maybe I should have just waited for him to say it and not helped him out? And shpuld I have told him that I needed space cause it feels like I set myself up for him to go dark on me. Save for a couple of housekeeping texts, we’ve had no contact and when we have, it’s been super pleasant, like neither of us have a care in the world and this is totally normal. He hasn’t tried to contact the kids either and they are used to seeing him every day. I wonder if he is missing them or if he is just using this time away to detach and tell himself that it was my choice for him to leave? That thought keeps me up at night. . Anyway...just needed to get that off my chest. So wish I could just fast forward to the end of this story to see how it ends. Hoping for the best and preparing for the worst makes me feel like I am just treading water.
On the positive side, my weekend seems pretty full. My twin is coming over on Saturday for a sleepover as her husband is away. No way that H will drop by since he is avoiding my family like the plague. I’ve told him she supports both of us but her and her husband were the people who “outed” him and he is too ashamed to face her (he told me this a week ago - “too ashamed to face anyone”.) Sunday another friend is coming over and we are making Thanksgiving dinner (I live in Canada). H is taking the kids that day so he is aware of the dinner.
Would appreciate people’s thoughts on my questions? Did I jump the gun?
. Anyway...just needed to get that off my chest. So wish I could just fast forward to the end of this story to see how it ends. Hoping for the best and preparing for the worst makes me feel like I am just treading water. 
